Sorry, Sorry - Winter Solstice version

There's an old saying in chinese about winter solstice: 冬至大如年 which means winter solstice is as great as Chinese New Year. I was preparing 'tang yuan' with my mom and sister last night. We were chatting and joking when both me and my sister came up with this silly idea....

Original version by Super Junior:
Sorry Sorry Sorry Sorry
Naega naega naega meonjeo
Nege nege nege ppajyeo
Ppajyeo ppajyeo beoryeo baby

My version:winter solstice ( 冬至) Sing In Hokkien!
sou nyi, sou nyi, sou nyi, sou nyi,
dang zek, dang zek tio bui sou nyi,
ang sek, pek sek, ngui sek, qeng sek,
di, di, nyi, nyi, chiak liao happy!

translation in chinese:
搓汤圆，搓汤圆，搓汤圆，搓汤圆，
冬至， 冬至，必须搓汤圆，
红色，白色，黄色，青色，
甜甜圆圆，吃了happy!

Happy Winter Solstice! 冬至快乐！

In process last night....Presenting.....Tang Yuan!

Hot Showers + Broadband

I'm BACK!!

Just completed my internship at Pathlab HQ in Kelana Jaya two days ago. It was very educating, interesting, fun, chaotic, boring...you name it..but in a nutshell, I do not regret applying for internship. It might be boring sometimes, and the reports are killing (this internship is only an optional, why on earth we have to write soooooo many reports, and soooo detailed for the final report??!!!). Anyway, I made a great number of friends, and gained a lot of experience.

Back to the topic. Hot showers!

I never fully appreciate the wonders of water heater until I had my real hot shower yesterday for the past 11 weeks! We (Cindy, Eileen, and I) were staying at Pathlab's company house for the whole duration of our industrial training. I can stand with everything there except for one: there's no HOT SHOWER! I'm not used to cold showers, especially early in the morning and at night. It's so freezing! I think I deserve a pat on my back for bearing with it for 11 weeks, haha..

Next: Broadband Connection

Although Eileen got Celcom Broadband, but it was very very slow.. I can't even open my e-mail sometimes, let alone updating Facebooks, chat on MSN messenger, watching movies at ppstream. So, when I finally online using my house's Streamyx connection yesterday, I was sooo excited! Felt like I'm back, no longer outdated..update me people! Haha

Anyway, going to Penang from next Wednesday till 2nd of January (if not, I'll be left alone at home with no one to chat with, what a nightmare!). Hope can catch up with some friends there!

Penang hawker foods, HERE I COME!!

Being Me

I remember reading a scene in Harry Potter series where Hermione snapped at Ron with his ability to process only a little amount of feelings at a particular time.

I think she used the word teaspoon to describe it. Some people, especially guys really lack in the field of sensing feelings (or they just simply choose to ignore it). What a boring life one will have, because there will be only a little excitement, right? Some on the other hand is blessed with the ability to sense a cauldron-full of feelings at a time, and most of the time, they tend to over-analyze stuffs. What a life, it's like having a firework-thunderstorm hybrid machine embedded in your head, keep getting 'explosive waves' of thoughts and feelings all the time. Really, I'll think that I'm going insane if I could be excited, depressed, stressed and relaxed at the same time. Hm, I think I'm in the middle....

What has been going on my mind in the last hour:

Happy:
Yeah, it's Sunday! Who doesn't like Sunday? No class, off-day, can sleep in, slumber.... had always like weekends since I could memorize the days of a week.

Excited:
Going to Sunway Pyramid tomorrow, and since my sis is following her school trip to Genting and is going to spend their first day of the trip in Sunway, I'LL GET TO MEET HER! YES!!! Going to buy a long overdue birthday present for her (let her pick her own present, because she is really picky this year and I have no idea what to give her...), bring her for a nice meal...I'm such a good sis..hahahaha...(syok sendiri-ing)

Relaxed:
Drinking hot milo in a air-cond room, watching movie, typing a blog entry, and started reading Where Rainbows End while waiting for the movie to load. One friend is sleeping, while another is chatting with someone on her phone in another room, complete silence except for the steady typing sound..

Frustrated:
Halfway through the novel, can't stand the stupid male main character in the book, skipped to the last few pages and regretted immediately. Omg, use 50 years to realize that you like her? It's not stupid, it's plain DUMB! Ohya, kinda frustrated with a friend of mine now, the more I think, the more I'm mad.....

A lil-bit stressed:
Haven't type a single word in my weekly report, and still altering my over-due monthly report. I rather do experiment report than monthly report. Everything is still like a giant piece of puzzle.

Guess I'm still normal for a average 21 year-old, right?

-ciao-
xoxoxox

Now I Know The Word STRESSED

I know my responsibilities are quite heavy, one mistake and I could accidentally kill a person..

Ok, I'm exaggerating...but it is still quite serious.

This is what happened. I forgot to run a conformation test for the serum which the doctor requested to check for syphilis. I'm just went into Serology department for the second day, and already make mistakes. Luckily Biochemistry department haven't run the serum for other biochemical test when I realized my mistakes, or I'll have explanations to do. Syphilis is curable nowadays, but it still could be fatal. What if my mistakes causes the diagnosis to be late, and 'killed' the client in the end? Imagine if I did the same mistakes when screening for HIV...

My parents are in KL for the second day, but are too busy to find me, plus I didn't dare to go and find them myself, cause my dad would have to fetch me all the way back to kelana jaya. I'm a good girl ok? Dun wanna trouble my dad.. I'm in such a bad mood....haiz...

More updates on internship later..

Right now, I juz wanna sulk...

Coming up: INTERNSHIP!!

Hehehe, that's right! Internships for Biotech Year 2 is going to start soon!!

Starting from next Monday (5/10/09), I'll be completing my internship at Pathology & Clinical Laboratory Sdn. Bhd. in Kelana Jaya. It's the HQ for the whole Pathlab chain in Malaysia..but who cares? As long as I could learn something, which I think, I probably would learn a lot..(no allowance...haizz..)

I would like the thank Eileen's mother for everything..hehe

One downside: weekly reports for internal supervisor a.k.a assigned lecturer from University. WEEKLY! Received an e-mail from Dr.Choo today: short report, a summary of approximately 2 pages..which exclude the cover page, I think. Thanks to the non-stop experiment report almost every week since first sem, this should be much problem, right? Certainly hope so!

Anyway, I would be living with Eileen and Cindy for whole 11 weeks. O.O
Happy, excited, anticipating...wahahaha...wondering how much crazy stuffs we would be doing again..hm...

This would be my second 'job'..another working experience..yeah! Ohya, I won't be able to online as frequent as now in the next three months I think..I certainly would miss the wonders of internet A LOT!

Well, sometimes we have to make some sacrifices to gain something, right?

A line that makes everything different

Few more days, to be exact, three more days, including today, we will be having the last last paper in final for this semester. Principles of Biotechnology. Everyone is every excited, starting to switch gear to holiday mood. Yup, it has been a long year. From January till September, two crazily, hectically packed semester (last semester's timetable which were insane and this semester's subjects)..of course everyone is looking forward for a good rest..

Industrial training is going to start soon. I will have to go to KL after returning to home for a week soon.

I was ecstatic for the coming holiday...too many things happened in this few months, I need a break. I was ecstatic for the industrial training...finally, I could live in a place with malls or any sort of entertainments just few minutes away after about 7 years. But now, I wasn't.

A bad news came to my family last week. I was looking so much forward to go home, am still now.. but now I know, the atmosphere will be different from what I imagined before this..it will be kinda sombre. It's not like I wanna run away from it, it's just that I dunno how to face it. Instead of feeling ecstatic for industrial training, suddenly the mood was down one notch, from ecstatic to well, maybe 'happy' might be good enough to describe it.

Well, there's no way to turn back everything now. I remembered one of the birthday wishes of both KaSwin and Sam made this month: I wish that one wish of my friends will come true. I have one wish now. I wish that all my family members are healthy. I wish that the condition is positive and is treatable..(this is some issue I cannot share here).

I believe in fairies, I believe in God, I believe in religions, I believe in Science. But now, FAITH is the only thing I could rely on. Be strong for the sake of the family!

Sleeping Phobia?

According to Wikipedia...

Somniphobia: persistently abnormal fear of sleep. This condition is often triggered by maladaptive or psychological triggers such as PSTD (Posttraumatic Stress Disorder)

Nope, I didn't have any of those. Never been in trauma..

Been facing insomnia for more than a week. Took more than an hour trying to fall asleep. Exam period. Stress. Quiet normal for students, is it?

But when I finally get to sleep without waking up every 30 minutes, I started to have really weird long dreams that shift from scene to scene, especially when I was sleeping at night. So weird because it seems so real, makes me really uncomfortable..

Can't recall how many weird dreams I had made this week alone....Great, now I'm afraid of sleeping...

I'm emotionally exhausted. Sooo tired...

When stress becomes distress

I remember reading an article in The Star months ago about STRESS..

Basically, stress could be differentiated into two categories: EUSTRESS and DISTRESS

Eustress: gives one a feeling of fulfillment, positive feeling = healthy stress

Distress: negative stress, pain, anxiety, etc...


The condition of me yesterday: stress
The condition of me now: distress? nope, more like BREAKING DOWN!

Is it just me? Felt like the syllabus is at least twice or trice as much compared to last semester..

Was studying physiology last night, rushing like hell, trying to finish at least once....suddenly my mind starts to nag me about biochemistry. So, I prepare a list of pathway, close my eyes, and cincai randomly pick a pathway...voila, gluconegenesis. Took me more than 5 minutes to write it down, plus forgotten the enzyme phosphoenolpyruvate carboxykinase.

Was studying microbiology just now, suddenly think about abscisic acid..

Tried to sleep the moment I felt tired, but keep tossing n turning around until I'm fed up. Give up sleep, continue study, but my mind felt sooooo saturated.

OMG? No point asking for God's or Buddha's help right now..continue study!!

When Answers Might Not Be Answers

Remember the good old days where multiple-choice-questions (MCQ) were about choosing the right or best answer among the options given?

Forget about those old style way. Welcome to our Microbiology lab test, where:

Mr Ng :" Notice that there are 47 marks for multiple choice questions?"

(yameh? I'm sure everyone was looking at how many questions were there, what kind of question he ask..marks? later la, when i start anwering..)

" That means some questions might have more than one answer."

"Har? Hm? What? Okkaayyy...."

Wait for it...
...........

...........

...........

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" Some questions might have no answer."

"HAR? WHAT? WALAU EH! Like this also can?? "

Exactly. This was how the whole class responded. And I'm not exaggerating.


I was thinking after that. Maybe life is not about choosing 'the right thing', 'the right way'. How can we know we had made the right decision? Instead of thinking about making the right choice, we could select few options or if we don't like it at all, then just ignore them completely! Life could be much easier, right?

People has been getting lazier day by day. There is only a week to go before our study week starts. No thanks to continuous test, lab test, quiz that we used as excuse to 'ponteng' lecture.


Ok, back to physiology lab test for tomorrow where I have no choice but to study hard for it.. AAaHHH!!

When Tears Run Dry

I thought I can handle it. I can't

It's like sprinkling salt on a stab wound. The two sentences on your blog, hurts so much.

Ever tried crying until there are simply no more tears?

I just tried that, feels like suffocation..

It's already 6am, but I can't sleep..

p/s: thanks for being there when I needed somebody, thanks for those hugs...