U-turns in my life?

Can't think of a suitable title for this post, so I use this title instead...

How can you describe yourself when you are disappointed, regretting something, missing someone, emotionally tired and wish to turn back time?

I started to stop wishing time could turn its back for me since I started uni life...I used to wish I was back in form 2, where I am fully happy with my life then. But if I have the choice to go back in time, when do I wanna restart again? Not form 2 anymore, as I had finally lifted that burden off my mind since last year...

I wish I could turn back time to where I made that stupid decision this sem...

Received a sms and a call from my brother few days ago, tell me he is going back home this weekend and asked me am I going back? Received a call from my dad yesterday, asking me am I busy this weekend? Am I going home? I miss my bro, I miss my sis, I miss my parents! I wish I could go home, especially times like this, when I needed someone to lean on...

Read wanling's blog moments ago..realized I had not been keeping in touch with them for a long long time....I'm such a bad friend, huh...i miss you....

Random ranting....

Didn't update my blog for quite some time....

Since last semester, i think?

A lot had happened since...

Finished year one of my three year uni life,

Langkawi trip with my beloved coursemates..

My 21st birthday + 3 celebrations

Commence of year 2 sem 1, involving as a helper in ice breaking...

Spent more time with some coursemates...( and did a lot of insane stuffs with them)...

Noticed some change in character in me....

Increasing workload....(test, test and more test!)

Have loads of thoughts, did a lot of thinking on stuffs and made me even confused than before..

Trying to live my live to the max!

and promise myself to spend a lil more time to update my blog...

~ciao~

Emotional Decisions??

The problem started when we were asked by Mr James to form into a group of 5 person few days ago for our oral presentation (oral presentation for biochem? WTH, as if we didn't have enough works in our hands)....

Undeniably, I'm closer to some of my group mates.. I'm close to almost everyone in group 1, and some in group 2 and maybe group 3...but in this semester, for some reasons, it seems that I'm much closer to Cindy and Eileen and vice versa..somehow, we ended sticking together in the same assignment groups for this sem...

Due to some unhappy memories during last semester assignments, some of us tends to avoid being in the same group with some group members....I can't state the reasons here, but those involved should know what I meant..

The truth is, I'm also one of those that avoids them...and we were kinda too obvious that day... Did my words affected the decisions of other people or did their words affected me too?

Sometimes, I have a very strong urge to tell those being avoided what is happening, maybe there will be change of attitude, maybe not..and for sure it'll affect our friendships...what should I do? I have no choice but to keep quiet..but is keeping quiet a good way to solve those problems?

Hopefully I didn't make this decision based on my emotion.....did I do the right thing? Only time will tell .....

The Feeling of Being SOOO Close..

Close? Close to what? Close to H1N1 virus...

My neighbor has to be self quarantine because they contacted with their son which was in the same flight with the girl of 2nd confirmed case in Penang.

Their quarantine period will end in Wednesday or Thursday (I'm not sure), but I'm soooo freaking nervous right now. Words alone can't express my feelings..haiz..

Hope everything will be Okay...pray harder, pray harder...

1st Post in Blogger

After few weeks of consideration, I finally decided to change my blog to here...

I forgot when I opened this account, but I know at that time, few of my friends blog and only a few of them use blogger. I didn't use this account last time cause I found that it is not so organized (especially the layout), so I switch to WordPress instead...

I'm quite satisfied with WordPress actually..from the slick layout to the account admin page.. everything is so organized..except for 1 thing: so damn hard to customize my blog! I can't even embed mp3 to my blog! When I googled this topic, most of the answer is I have to buy dunno what update space if I want to embed videos or mp3 to my blog. Even CSS coding have to be purchase if I want to use CSS to customize my blog...(something like that)

So, that's it..from now onwards, I'll be using this blog...
I'll miss you WordPress!!

Sorry for any inconvenience caused and thanks for reading my blog!

p/s: this is my 6th blog site actually..after Xanga, forgot-what-the-site-was, Friendster, MSNSpace and WordPress